Spiral Journey

This post was written on 27 December 2022.

Two years ago, in the grasp of the pandemic, I was in a very different place - both literally and figuratively. It is a very personal story and not a very happy one. Yet, in the midst of it all there were moments filled with…how am I to call it?…It was Grace.

Two years ago I lived a most surreal Christmas. This photo however, from Mexico, captures and emotes the still-points I experienced. A kind of devotion. Soft exhale. Etched in my memory.

To heal it is necessary to feel all emotions.

Two years ago I was going into the center of a swirling emotional spiral.

One year ago the spiral, well, spitted me out.

It took me a year to be able to say that it was blessing in disguise.

I am in a different place now. I am able to look at my memories and my photos without cringing or closing my eyes.

Today I feel strong that I’ve come so far on my journey.

But, the journey is a spiral. It is taking me deeper - and higher - with each step. Where all emotions are held, in Grace.